So I remembered this blog I started and failed miserably trying to keep up with 4 years ago. I thought I would give it another try. I mean, why not? My life is about to become completely turned upside down.
So to update everyone, Jackson is 17, Avery 16, Ivy 11 and Jadon just turned 10. Wait, is that right? Maybe Ivy is 12. No...no...her birthday is in November and she is 11 still. Honestly...I can't keep up. Jackson is a senior, Avery a junior, Ivy 6th and Jadon 5th. Now that I know is correct.
Jack works at Archer High School as a School Resource Officer. That is where the kids go. We love the Archer cluster. I hate that Ivy is so far away but it is what it is. We are blessed.
I work as a transport nurse both on flight and ground at Children's Healthcare of Atlanta. I just dropped to part-time so I can attend Grad school at Vanderbilt. I start tomorrow! YIKES! I am hoping to graduate in August 2015 and will be a Pediatric Nurse Practitioner.
Jackson wants to be a doctor. Lord. Help. Us. All. (Kidding...he will be a great doctor!)
Avery loves acting and has JUST (as in yesterday) signed up to take voice lessons from a dear friend who is absolutely AMAZING! I am beyond excited as she has avoided singing like the plague due to my, ahem, strict OCD vocal nature. Ivy has been playing softball and Jadon is starting baseball with Hebron, our church. Love that they offer this for the kids! A Christian atmosphere makes all the difference sometimes.
So let me tell you about my weekend. Jadon just turned 10 on August 9th. He has been begging for a birthday party. Years ago I was allll about the parties. I would give every child a party and have tons of people over. It was exhausting but so much fun. Well things have changed. I no longer enjoy the planning and making everything just perfect for their big day. I cringe when they ask to have friends over...much less host a party. Do you want to know why? Because I have lost the battle of maintaining a spotless home. I LOVE a clean organized home...but....I give up. It is constantly a mess. The kids vomit their stuff in every single room and let me just be honest...Jack and I aren't any better. I have a messy bedroom. I hate it. I have my crap stacked up. I have no time to organize the way I prefer to and I need a live-in maid to follow us all around. Despite my OCD and desire to have perfection and my home to be show quality at all times...I just can't do it. So...needless to say, the party would require a clean home so I would not suffer the embarrassment of living in a dump. Jack insisted the yard needed to be cut (it didn't) and spent 6 or more hours outside, presumably avoiding being inside with me. You see I was on a mission to have everyone fulfill their role in cleaning this house. Each child was responsible for getting it done. I cleaned my room and bathroom, they did everything else...well...sorta. I of course had to go behind them and give more orders or do it myself to get the desired results.
By time Jack came inside I was a raving lunatic. I already had two kids in tears. My head was spinning around and smoke was coming out of my ears. Why does no one have this deep longing to have a clean home like I do??? Why is this a constant ongoing issue??? The boys were dropped off and we were taking them to jump at Skyzone for an hour. The entire drive they were making farting noises and talked nonstop. They were louder than any 6 girls I have ever been around! I had never been inside Skyzone so this was a new experience. I would have preferred a nice quiet lounge to rest in while they jumped but I wanted to "share" in their experience. I practiced deep breathing and smiled a lot to make sure no one saw I was about to jump out of my skin. On the way back to the house, they watched a movie so it was more bearable. When we arrived, our family was waiting on us. We were going to have a party and let the kids swim. Jadon opened his gifts. Then...the drama began.
Did you know that boys create drama just like girls? I hate it. I just don't understand why everyone can't just play and get along! Jadon was of course in rare form and he was showing out. This did not help the situation. He had to apologize to a couple of the boys and was not very sincere. I thought I was going to end the party and send everyone home. I was so mad, I told him he was going to have to return the gifts because he wasn't a very good friend. Maybe it was just me because I have recently become insane...but I was ready to cry. The boys left and I went immediately upstairs and crashed...and ...I am so proud to say that I did not cry. I simply did not have the energy.
So today, I awoke with a raging headache and my "what happens when you get stressed out" lupus malar rash. I stayed home from church and prepared for my week ahead. I am leaving tomorrow for Nashville to attend orientation. I'm excited...and I'm terrified at the same time. I am hoping this time will be good for me to get away from my family...don't take that the wrong way...I love them...I just need a break. I know I will miss them terribly though. I am praying they are protected and they are good for Jack and Granny. Maybe when I get back home I will not be as insane ;)
All this to say, I love my family. I hope I come back renewed and ready to be a less-than-insane Mom. Right now, Jadon and Ivy are sitting on the stairs for calling each other names. They continue to argue. They may still be sitting there when I leave in the morning because they are contributing to my insanity.
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